Overdue Update

Helloooo strangers ! I know I know, I haven't been around a lot lately and I need my rear kicked for it I recon... but LIFE happens ya know and mine seems to be FULL of things that keep me "too busy" to sit my rear end at the computer long enough to tell you what is on my mind. Sad I know... you are just sitting there waiting on pins and needles for whatever might pop up on my page next aren't you? HA HA Not ! Well, let's see. I feel old. Yes, today I feel really old. Why? Well, because my middle child just turned 14 years old today. *sigh* He is growing up so fast ! Already taller than I am. Smart as a whip. Stubborn as my Daddy was ( God help me !! ). And .... sometimes too distant for my liking. Yeah, I know. Teenagers are only trying to assert their independence and search to find out who they are, but I miss my little cuddle bug ! We used to sit and talk for hours about everything and nothing. Now it is hard for me to even get him to tell me how his day went most of the time. Talk to me about his friends?? Only if it's something funny. Talk to me about what goes through his mind? Only if he is looking to see if he is odd or weird for thinking such things. ( Most cases, he is not. He's just a normal kid trying to figure things out ! ) Talk to me about his problems or troubles?? Oh noooooooooo! Can't do that. Don’t know why, but just can't. *sigh* I just want to be here for him... to help him... to love him. I shall just have to keep praying that God watch over him I guess. He did seem to like his cake though. I went for a more traditional cake instead of a "kiddy type" Birthday cake. It was Cookies & Cream ! YUMMMY ! I have been sitting here thinking I want another piece too... but so far I have resisted the temptation to add a few more unwanted pounds to my already rounder than it should be rump. We normally do a “date” thing where the kids pick either Lowell or I to take them out to dinner and a movie too for their birthday’s, but I think Ryan wants to wait till after Spring Break to see if there is a movie out that he would rather watch. That’s ok with me. I am just glad I thought about the “date” thing a few years back because I really enjoy spending time alone with them when they do pick me to take them. Memories in the making ! *wink* I had an unexpected trip to Alabama last week as well. For some reason my Aunt Sissy decided that she was going to up & leave home and not contact anyone for days. Maw Maw King ( Her mom ) called me upset… and you know me ! I went a runnin’ ! I am still not sure about all of the details as to what happened, but Sissy is back home now… FOR now. She was supposed to call me back and talk to me, but so far I have not heard from her. * sigh* I wish I knew what I did so wrong to make her not want to be a part of my life anymore. I heard that it has something to do with me deciding to take my Daddy ( her big, oldest brother ) off of life support and let him die in peace. I am not sure if that is true or not, but I do wonder. Spring Break is coming fast and it will be yet another busy time for me. A joyous one, but a busy one for sure. I will be traveling all over GA again. Nothing new huh? Yeah, I know. I should get my CDL’s and drive for a living ! At least I’d get paid for all those miles on the road! Hehehe Ok, so where will I be going? First to Monroe, to drop off beds, clean up the graveyard, visit with my family, and take my Maw Maw Clegg and cousin Nikki to see Hillary’s two girls who are still in Foster Care there. Then I will be heading to Newnan, GA. My kids ( all three of them ) will already be there because Dad Shaul is coming to pick them all up next week & take them back to his house. So, I get a small… kind of long weekend vacation from the kidlets I guess. Why am I going over there too?? Cause Dad is getting married ! Yeppers ! He is gonna marry Ms. Peggy ! Whooooohooooooo ! I can’t wait ! He is so happy and I am so happy for him too. It is sure to be an… interesting day though. His kids ( My Ex, his wife, and ex brother in law ), Her kids ( and some that aren’t really hers but she claims them ), plus me and Lowell. Yep. Interesting is a good word. LOL I will have to let ya know how that one pans out for sure. Not sure if you remember or not… but I told you all about a year ago about my daughter Sandi accepting Christ as hr Savior. Since then, she has asked several times if she can be baptized. Well, I was not ignoring her request, but rather giving her more time to grow as a child of God and learn what it really means to be baptized. And more over than that, to be baptized into the Adventist Church. ( If you are SDA you know what I mean!! If not, let’s just say it’s a lot more than just being dunked under water ! ) She is 9 now, and very smart. Still a little high strung and much like a half pint Drama Queen at times, but smart all the same. I know that the Bible says that I am to raise her ( Well, Lowell AND I…. can’t leave him out here ! ) , in the ways according to God’s word and teach her His Love and Laws. We do that, to the best of our ability. However, being a Mommy who most defiantly wants her child to be in Heaven with her one day… I am not sure if I would be objective enough to go through the process of trying to make sure Sandi understands all of the needed things for her to be baptized into the Adventist Church. So, now I have to think… and figure out where to go from here. It is clear that she is not going to give up. She has asked me MANY times lately about it. And even mentioned someone at our church who does “classes” per say to help you understand it all. I am very proud of her for wanting it so bad, but I want to be sure she knows EXACTLY what it is she is asking for first. So, what to do ? Well, I have a few idea’s. I can let her take the “classes” at the church. I can try to teach her myself, and pray that I do not improperly influence her for my own wants to be met. I can ask my Mother In Law to talk with her about it and possibly teach her whatever it is that she may need to know before hand. I can ask Leticia ( the Adventurer Club Leader ) if she would be willing to help us. I can also see if Nick Minder would be willing to talk to Sandi and make sure she is “ready” from an outside looking in kind of view. All I really know for sure is, that I want my Father In Law to come up here and be the one who does her Baptism. I have my own reasons for that to which I wont talk about here. So far… I think I am liking the Mother In Law Idea best. Not only do I believe that my Mom In Law will make certain that Sandi is ready, I believe that she will also be able to be impartial to her too. I also think that it would be a wonderful bonding time for the two of them. Mom Hanson is an amazing woman who truly loves the Lord with all of her self. You can see it in her every day actions, hear it in the words that flow from her mouth, and feel it in the air that surrounds her. She is truly… my hero ! Hmm I will have to talk to her and see if she has time to help us out here. If she can’t…. then I can try to go with one of the other idea’s I suppose. Wow, this is turning into a book again. See what happens when I wait too long to update everyone on this thing I call life ?? Geeeesh !! Ok, one last thing and then I will hush for this time. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do me a HUGE favor and say a special prayer for my hubby. You know I do not ask for stuff like this very often, but I think it is HIGH time I do now. He is so tired lately. Worn to the bone. Working long hours. Coming home and dealing with a sickly wife and three kids that don’t like to mind him. ( ughhhh!! ) He has taken over the Pathfinders Club at the church and seems to like it, but it is a lot of work too. They are redoing SO many things at his job lately that he hardly knows if he is coming or going most days. There may even be a possibility that his job may be in jeopardy somewhere down the line. He stresses about money way too much, mainly because we have way too little of it ! He needs some soul rest. Something to revive him from deep inside so that the outside will catch up. I miss him singing in the mornings. I miss him smiling all the time. I miss how he made me see the bright side of every issue we faced in our lives. I miss the family prayer time we used to have. I miss the couple prayer time we used to have. I miss the long Sabbath afternoons laying in the bed just talking about everything under the sun and being sure that we thanked God for them all. *sigh* Anyways, just please pray for him. He is a good man and he works hard to provide for his family and church as well. Ok, I’m done taking up all of your time. Go on back to surfing the net, checking your e-mail, browsing blogs… whatever it was you were doing before I bored you to death here. Hehehe HUGS n stuffies, Chrissy